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And they decorate your cube, and make you a cake…generally embarassing you.  The one person you know is behind it (who is a friend, or at least a friendly person at work,that you used to hang out with) says he has a gift for you, and to let them know when you want to get it because they left it in their car.

do you 

a)  Thank them and say ‘thanks for the stuff today’ and go get the gift?

b)  ignore the fact that they got you a gift, and when they text you to remind you, do nothing?

I know what my choice would be.  That’s just me, however.  

I’m more frustrated with myself than anything.  That whole ‘fool me once, shame on you, fool me twice, shame on me’ thing.  I feel like I let myself get fooled once, and then thought things would be different the 2nd time, and it’s not.  

If someone says they want to be your friend, and act like a good friend, and then they don’t, do you call them on it or just let them go?  What if it’s a case of your version of good friend and theirs is just different?  Would adding drama to this and calling them on it really help?  Or is it *your* fault for expecting something from somebody and having them consistently not give it, yet you keep expecting them to because they said they would 3 months ago?

Then again, I could just be pissy because I’m 90% certain she’s dating someone else in the office and is lying to everyone about it.  So far I’m 100% correct in those assumptions (I called the last one) so it wouldn’t surprise me to be right again.

So…yeah.  The new (old) rules are back in play.  Ignore the person involved – don’t be pissy or an ass about it, but don’t let her into your life if she’s not letting you into hers.

I guess I just hoped to be over this crap already.   My mind has figured this all out.  The heart is just being a biatch about it.

I mean, really, is it that hard to be somebody’s friend?  I don’t find it hard.  If she is finding it hard to be my friend, then that’s saying something right there.

I was just looking forward to have a ‘girl space friend’ to hang out and do things with, and I’m disappointed that it had the potential to do that (and she even said she wanted to be!) but it’s not meant to be.

Picking up a police report for the laptop that was stolen out of my car a few weeks back.  I had planned to be there for a while, this was the government, right?

Yes and No.  I get there, with my police report number, and expect the worst…but only 1 person is in line.  WOOT!

Or so I thought.

There’s this lady there, and she doesn’t have a report number.  Here’s a sample of questions/comments:

• “I think it was a motor cycle accident”
• “It was reported on the news, there has to be a police report”
• ” I think it was the intersection of X/Y street”
• ” It was either Friday or Saturday

WTF LADY!  I had my report number, and had to sit there and listen to you, because you were clueless and didn’t do *any* research about this stuff ahead of time, try to get some poor lady to pull up a report for you!!!   HOLY FARK!

It’s the *government*.  It’s the *police*!  Have your shit together *before* you show up.  You are exactly why people at the DMV and everywhere else hate their jobs.   DO SOME FUCKING WORK SO THE REST OF THEM AND US CAN GET ON WITH OUR DAMN LIVES WITHOUT WAITING ON YOUR SORRY ASS.

Luckily, some other lady at the department came over and took pity on me.  I handed her my case number, and had 2 copies of the report 3 minutes later.

But that’s still 20 minutes of my life I wasted.  THANKS FOR NOTHING.

I need a banner image, people!  Get to work!  I’ll post some things and ya’all (hahahaha, I’m going native) can help me decide, and contribute as well.  

Ah’ll be back!

I’ve been Meh.  Ever sleep but never feel rested?  Go to work but not really enjoy things that you typically do, and get behind?  Yeah.  It’s been one of those weeks (months?)
Anyhoo.  Another reason I haven’t been blogging is that I was concerned nobody was reading.  I’ve disabused myself of that notion by going through some archives and realize that most people start at 0.  :)  Probably have some lurkers too.

The other non-fun thing I’ve been contemplating is ‘crossover’ issues – what if I want to blog about something that’s bothering me/amusing (personal) and the people that I would most like to share/let know about this blog are involved?  Or people read and get information about other people that they wouldn’t otherwise know?  I know it seems pretty silly to not have considered this *before* blogging, and how to handle it, but I’d rather think about it now before I commit to blogging and turn it up to ‘11′.

Also, I don’t want this to become a ‘vent only’ forum.  My life isn’t all angst.  Who wants to read a blog that is ‘my latest trouble is XYZ?’

  Also some trivial matters:

1)  I don’t like my name (notatumor).  I don’t know why, I needed something, but this is blah.  My pseudonym I used from college on is associated with my name, so I can’t use it.  I need a good *name*

2)  I don’t like the way I started this blog.  I think I could potentially lose a friend (PYT) if this was ever found.  Plus it just hurts to know that I wrote something like that down and it’s on teh internets for all of eternity

So yeah, I’ve been hiatusy.  But I’m almost back.  I feel more human every day

On the fun side, I have a MAC.  So I’m at least back into hobby mode with my computer, instead of dreading working on the POS laptop that I’m logged into what seems every day of my life.  WHEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

To my true friends -

And you know who you are.  The ones who call me – the ones who write or talk or do things with me….

I’m understanding how much that means now that I’m going through the struggle of having to let someone (see the arrivaderci post) go as a friend again.  It sucks when you invest a lot in someone expecting and hoping that they’ll be your friend (or continue to be) and you don’t get the ‘return’ you expect – the return attention/emotion/whatever that indicates it’s a 2 way street.  The realization that you have to let them go because they’re not healthy, or they just don’t care, and they’re using you, even if they don’t mean to.

So….for those of you who are reading, and are my true friend (and those of you who may someday read this) -

Thanks.  You rock.

I hadn’t seen this before.  I’ve got this going through my head for 3 days now.  I now have the urge to end every sentence with mother fucker when I’m talking to customers.

I told you that you couldn’t do that….mother fucker!

I’m sorry I didn’t call you yesterday…mother fucker!

You have to configure another tranform set for the iphone to work – mother fucker!

When did text messages become so important?

I’ve had a girl tell me that she got upset because I didn’t respond to her text message.  I then asked another girl how important text messages were, and she said ‘very’.

What gives?

The only thing I can think of is that text messages have punctured the ‘unavailable’ barrier.  Meaning, that prior to text messages – if you called and you got voicemail, maybe he’s busy, or on the phone with someone else.  No big deal right?  He’ll respond later.

Text messages are different.  There is no ‘busy’, and no voicemail – the only reason someone wouldn’t get a text is if they are out of range, or don’t have their phone – 2 unlikely things in this day and age.  So the assumption is the text went through,  and if they don’t respond within a reasonable amount of time (and don’t ask me what *that* means) – then they saw the text and chose not to respond.

That’s the transgression.   You *know* they got the message and chose not to respond, for whatever reason.

Ladies – give us guys a little bit of a break.  If texts are that important to you, let us know up front so we can treat them with the gravity they deserve.

And hey – can’t a guy choose not to respond every once in a while?  We need our space too.

The eternal guy question.

I’m seeing one girl – been on date # 3.  Not sure about spark.  Is it OK for me to be pursuing other women (not that I have any, but still on the lookout), or does date #3 incur some sort of commitment I’m not aware of?  Would love to hear what anyone has to say.  My mind is until we’ve *done* something major, had sex, I’m still in the clear.  I’m not sure if I’m the type of guy that can have sex with multiple women  and not feel guilty about it.  Never been done in my world.  I usually mongamously pursue someone, until they say no, and then move onto the next one.

Thoughts?  Would love some perspective.

So….I haven’t posted in a week or so (or almost a week or so).  Why?  Things have gotten better/strange in my life.    So without any further ado….

My trip can be summed up as the following:

1. Delta sucks delta sucks delta sucks delta sucks delta sucks
2. Is it bad when you look down your bar bill and there are lots of single beers but the patron shots are in double digits?
3. There’s almost nothing that 10 tylenol can’t fix
4. T&M (no good blog pseudonym for them yet) and their kids are too cute, and I need to visit/keep in contact with them more often.  I forgot how much I missed them (and that part of my music/educated college life talks)
5. American Airlines > Delta
6. 1.75 days of vacation (delta sucks!) is != 3 days of vacation

Went on a 3rd date with conservative girl (CG for short).  Still trying to figure out the whole ‘do we have spark or don’t we’ thing.  How long do you have to wait before you know that?  Though making out on the couch is fun .  Not sure about how her being conservative and me being middle of the road with liberal leanings (fiscally somewhat conservative, socially liberal) will work out – she listens to Rush, and was upset when I said I voted for Kerry in the last election.

Work is too busy.  As always, but I feel more behind then most.  I really need some sort of system to manage the billion e-mails I have to deal with every day.  Has anyone tried GTD?

Oh, and PYT and NB are either broken up or are taking space.  PYT is hanging out (though not to previously high levels) with me again.  Not sure whether to just accept that or call her on it.  LOL

Ahhh, Travel.  How I hate thee.  Let me count the ways……<overflow error>

Arrive at the airport an hour and 1/2 ahead of time?  Check.  Flight is *already* delayed.

Try to get on standby?  No.   And that is what irritates me.  I *know* some people who got on standby would have otherwise just been late and they had no connecting flights.  I had to try to make the *last* flight availabe for my connection – so if I missed it, I had to wait until the next day.  Can you guess, with my luck, what happened?

There needs to be some priority system where people who have connections get priority.  Not this first come first serve stuff.

Oh, and to the people who thought I was a jerk when I was stressed out and they were from my company….perhaps the best way to introduce yourself is to not be violating my personal space and looking over my shoulder at my personal information on my ticket?  A ‘hey, we’re from BNC (big network company) too.  How goes?”

Rather than what appeared to be 1)  you being waaaay to close to me and 2)  appearing to try to read my tickets/personal information without introducing yourself first.

However, I could have handled it better.  I was in my stress zone, and I act more with anger and frustration then being overly forgiving.  But on the other hand, you guys were kinda tools. 

Though I did meet some cool people – on the plane – that was good.  I’m slowly turning into a people watcher.

So now to sleep.  and perchance to actually make it to my destination tomorrow.